WORK IS SUFFOCATING ME*

BAD GUYS
WILL DIE
EVENTUALLY ! !
BLEAHS!

hmms, went for work ystd..hoping to see rachel, amelia and joanne.. but guess what happen that completely screw my day? amelia was transfered to TAKA 1/2 hr before ii can see her..and poor rachel was very sick and went home the very moment amelia reach citylink.. left with joanne and me cum that someone nor.. spoil my whole mood sia.. cant get to see amelia ystd sad sia.. nvm.. i'll get to see her real soon ii guess.. there's really no fun without them.cant crapp cant even really laugh our hearts out.. infont if that B**** we cant really be ourselve and ii hate that damn feeling..ii ended up ending my work late at 10.15pm instead of 9.45pm when i'm with her. ii was nearly pissed off at that moment in time but no choice when iu're not the boss yourself..guess i'll be able to work with all my sisters real soon with that B****. know what, no one cant break our family apart!! hees.

PS*amelia thanks for the love letter!!!LOLS

guess i'm gonna msg rachel later and ask if she's fine.. she getting me worried too.. its not minor to have food poisoning k...but ii can tell iu that she's a strong girl..no doubt, in a few days time she's gonna be back to normal crapping with us again..but the bad part was i will be working lesser in the next two week and this means our meeting days will be cut down..hais.. somemore amelia is not planning to continue working after dec.. (must keep in contact okies!!)

oh ya.. i'll be starting my attachment at mintmark & co. from the beginning of next year.. meaning no school for the two months.. hmms, wonder how and ii going to survive working full time by then.. guess its rachel, qian and sharon thats gonna keep me going.. amelia and joanne will be busy starting their new school term at JC and Poly.. as time pass we're all gonna grow up and lead our own lives and eventually be busy with our lives.. really cant bear for separation as they're one real good genuine friend i've got so ii must grab them tight in case they slipped out of my hand!!haas..

so anyone of iu who is reading my blog now must cherish your close friends around iu'll all right? cause its like they're one of millions and billions who shares the same and think the same way as iu're thats why iu all become good friends isnt it..truefully speaking its really hard finding good friends as this world tends to be more realistic and the older iu get the more cautious iu should be with people around iu especially in the same working place as iu're who knows they might backstab iu in the end right? true friends are friends who iu can feeling it from your heart.. that how big the differences are...

ii had a tiff with dear ystd..maybe i'm just having pms again.. just cant seems to know why ii get pissed off that easily these days..it really must be pms.. but both really got real mad ystd but once we're more calm and rational everything went back to normal..what ii can say is that its really hard to maintain a relationship and ii wonder how qian can do it so well..ENVY! gotta get some tips from her yea? lols.. need alot of LOVE + UNDERSTANDING + CONCERN + GIVING IN =A STABLE AND HAPPY RELATIONSHIP.. look simple but when iu put it in actions its abit hard.. as what dear says ii dont like to give in.. i'm trying, trying and still trying all right? see how hardworking am ii? lols..

oh ya to dear information.. if iu thinks that ii am not looking forward to the upcoming outing we got then its isnt true okies!!! cos its a secret and my feeling are kept deep down inside my heart. cant iu see my entries that i'm so excited about it?! haas.. i am mssing iu already.

ii shall call it day then..

LOVING HIM -MINSEN*

ALITTLE ABT MY LIFE

LOVE &
PEACE,

hey..just realises that ii have not been blogging for sometime already..hmms, where shall ii start then?...ii shall say abit more about my work then.. met this two really nice girls at mintmark.. they are both new..come to think of that we really had loadsa fun together crapping and all.. rachel is the mastermind in all the jokes and all.. she the one who keep me going when i'm in a anti-working mood.haas. she just never fails to cheer me up..the two new sisters are joanne and amelia, they both look pretty and cute..come to think of that the first impression ii have on amelia was boyish but as time goes by iu can find her the other way round.she's cute can? ii can understand that they tend to be quite quiet in the first place cause they are still new.. so that's when US the seniors (rachel and me) have to make their work a fun place to be in.. isnt it? hees..

i always believe in a fun and loving working enviroment.. so then, it will makes iu want to go work more rather then going for the sake of going..iu should care for your colleagues too..know what, love is all around at work.. it really makes us a one big family..imagine people from all parts of the world gather together, they are strangers in the very first place but its like a special bond drawing all of us together.. thats fate ii guess and ii believe we all met for a reasons.. ii cherish them all!!!!

the only person that spoils our family is this one girl.. she's the current supervisor cum sales executive..ii cant deny that the fact that she's a B***H. she's always faking a smile at our jokes and tell us off in a nice manner but deep down inside ii know she's different from us.. she's like a spy.. watching over us with a dagger on her hand.. guess she just cant wait to find our flaws and backstab us. so what if her status is higher.. she dont have to put on airs and act as if she knows everything.she what she's a supervisor meaning= to she can skives and take more then one hour for her break? why not set a good example for us to follow instead.she's not up to that standard yet, but ii cant deny that she's good in sales. she treat those customer because she want them to buy things and lie her way through pushing sales.. two headed snake!!! just hate politics.. but at least ii got all the good friends there! i am contented..

we have lots of plans ahead of us too!! go out makan, makan and still makan!! hees.. cant wait for that too.. 1st outing-go eat fish & Co. 2nd outing-go for chinese fondue before new year and 3rd outing-we will be eating somewhere for joanne bdae celebration..guess it's going to be real fun by then yea?

MY 18th BDAE is approaching!!! hees.. i'll be spending it with dear! and before that the both of us, laopo and joseph will be going to fuji ice palace at jurong east to skate! i've not been skating for quite sometime already.. hope ii still know how to skate, i'm afraid to fall man.. cause it will be a painful one with blueblack after that..but the best part is when iu skate with all might, feeling the icy cold air flowing through your hair.i can tell iu the feeling was fantastic!!! but this time round there's a special someone who holds my hand when ii skate..well, ii can only say iu're the best among the best..always giving in to me even how angry iu're..hey cant be always my fault, but why am ii always the one.. hate being the one who's in fault.. it should be your turn!!=X HUR! just cant stop the love ii have for iu!hees.. hope iu too yea?

thats all.. i'm gonna update my multiply.. tatas

PS* DEAR-PIGGY IU!!

SSG DAY

SOCIAL GROOMING TEST *PHOTOS

AM I BEING TOOO THICK SKINNED???

LOLS-

WHAT'S IN DA PHONE?!

GROSS! GROSS!

MY CLAWS ARE SHARP *

TWISTIES =D

DECENT ME

SEE THE STUPID FACE OF US =P HAAS ! !

QIAN DA FACE ! !

LAOPO AND ME

I'M HAPPY ! !

-frankly speaking ii had so much fun on that day ! ! ii was so worn out too...

he's a fighter when he's mad

& he's a lover when he's loving

he's everything that I ever wanted & everything I need

When I talk about him, I can go on and on and on

Cause he's everything to me

he's the answer to my prayer & he's the song that I'm playing

Everyday that passes, I realize I'm only loving him more & more

he's the one that I'd lay down my own life to

Cause that's love, you'll see

We all commit a little bit of perjury

But that's no crime if you ask me, that's love

You're staring at a burnt steak

You bite the bullet & you clean your plate

And then you go on and on about how great it was

Now that's not a lie, that's Love

I'll never forget the first time that I heard that pretty mouth say that dirty word

But he covered his mouth and her face got red & he just looked so darn cute

That I couldnt even act like I was mad

I know he's not perfect but he tries so hard for me

And I thank God that he isnt

It's the little imperfections

It's the sudden change of plans

When he misreads the directions & we're lost but holding hands

When he's laying on my head next to me on the bed in the dark

And about the time he falls asleep, so does my head.

And I wanted so bad to move it cause it's tingling and it's numb

But he looks so much like an angel that I don't wanna wake him up

he steals my heart again and again & yet he doesn't even know about it

Yeah, but I live for little moments like that

I must admit I still don't understand

Why I lose my head holding your hand

There's simply no explanation, no simple excuse

For this intoxication I feel around you

And now truth be known since I've met you boy

I've been walking around in my own little world

One look in my eyes & darling any fool could see

That you have that effect on me

You think you're one of millions but you're one in a million to me

When you wonder if you matter to me & if you don't feel important

All I've got to say is

To the world, you maybe just another boy

But to me,Baby you are the world, my worldI look you in the eye

To finally say the words I swore I'd never say, in my whole life

Don't stray, Don't ever go away

Say you'll stay, don't come and go like you do

Sway my way, yeah I need to know, all about You

Can't you see that you're everything to me?

*extracted from unknown

ALONE

ALONE ALONE
STARING IN THE BLANK
I MISS IU!!

now ii am alone in the access room wors.. so CREEPY!! qian used to be always with me when ii am here. but today ii was early for school..=)) cannot always be late for school what. think baobei also used to me getting up late for school already =X damn bad habit of mine.. sian! i'll be having a so call "job interview" by miss chin.. kinda scared wors.. have to answer all those lame questions..

saw laopo blog just now.. OMG!! sharon so damn good nors.. bought a dress for qian as her late bdae gift.. so envy sia! ii also want!!! i'm gonna pester her about mine too! so thickskinned right? haas..

hais.. wed we are having our face and dressing test. meaning ii have to wear formal on wed.. ii had actually thought of what to wear on that day.. but ms chin said we cant wear black and white wors.. thinking of what to wear is really a pain in my neck man! still have to match marhs.. oh ya, ii still have to buy covered heels.. just dont understand why cant we wear our normal heels.. so that ii wont have to waste so much money to buy this and that..it will really cost a bomb in my wallet.. ii really kinda broke now..so how am ii going to get the money to buy the clothes and shoes.. arghhs! dont wanna think about it..


hmms, just saw bell's bf.. kinda miss her sia.. cos whenever qian is not around in school she will always be there to accompany me one.. she's good at crapping and making me laugh..lols! I MISS IU I! MISS IU! I MISS IU!!!!! do iu miss me? lols. also dont know what am ii thinking.....

ystd went to watch COLIC with baobei.. but baobei says she dont understand what the movie is talking about.. hmms, at least ii kinda know what it's about.. the baby's mother is so damn brave nors.. she willing to go against the odds and sacrifice herself for her child.. thats how great mother love is.. but its a pity that her best friend and her mom-in-law died...anyway its a good show..thumbs up!


-PS. baobei, the popcorn is so damn SWEET! lols.




MY BDAE IS COMING OMG! CANT WAIT WORS..

SORRIE, I LOVE IU..

PICS

oh ya there's some photos ii should had update long ago.. here it is.. =)

ON LAOPO BDAE CELEBRATION AT CAFE CARTEL

LAOPO CUTTING CAKE!

HER FRUIT CAKE

PRESENT FOR HER ..

I TIE IT MYSELF HEES!

some others photos...

ME!!

TOOK IT WHEN HE WAS FAST ASLEEP ON THE WAY TO WOODLANDS!

THATS ALL! TATAS!

PMS

PMS PMS..
UNLUCKY DAYS
I WONDER AND PONDER.

ii have not been blogging for quite sometime already.. where should ii start wors?

ehs..ii have not been attending school for three days.. maybe its because of my mood swing ii guess.. last tuesday ii had a scolding from Mrs Tay that completely spoilt my day. just because ii cant pass up my table because my damn disk got some problems.. and she said it as if ii use that as an excuse to delay me from passing up all the 5 tables. ii did do the tables okies, ii was so damn pissed off cos ii did make an effort to do it and she just denied the fact. the next thing was uncontrollable tears starts spilling out.. just hate it when ii cry.. and ii have to do the tables all over again on the spot and my tears just cant seems to stop.arghh! ii always cried when ii am scolded or when ii quarrelled with my love ones.. just hated all this cos it makes me feel so weak and helpless..


resulting to the next three days of absence from school cos ii just dont want to see her.. at least ii did make full use of the three days to adjust my feelings.. =) ii am feeling much better now already..


now in OIT class doing all microsoft excel.. have to type and type and type.. all these just doesnt seems to end.. so damn boring.. my mind is so empty wors..


anyway i'm gonna meet him later..hees.. at least ii got him to brighten up my days!=))


okies just heard from laopo that LX had been publishing her mutiply in the forum.. hais, why cant their dispute really end? all started because of J and ii guess someone should end all this..or else there will really be a neverending to it.. ii dont know if ii should call her bitch or whatever, ii am in no position to.. ii just dont understanding why both of them have been holding on tightly to something thats been really over.. ii thought LX wont do this kinda of underlying tactics to hurt qian.. but why cant they'll meet up and talk it out and just lead their own lives? and since J had qian why does he need to meet her up even knowing how much qian hated her.. ii cant seems to understand why.. ii am in no postion to judge who's right or wrong. guess i'll comment until here...

PS*LAOPO-dont think too much nars she's out to spite iu nia.. heck her kkaes..

PS*Dear-ii hope this kinda of things wont happen to us wors*PRAYING HARD!

ZHI AI NI <3

BUZZ OF STRANGERS!!

BUZZ OFF STRANGERS!!
LEAVE MY BLOG ALONE!!!
I AINT KIND*
okies, ii dont know how should ii start but ii am treating this matter VERY SERIOUSLY! ii dont understand who the hell came to view my blog and tagged at my tag board using MY NAME! and sprouting all sorts of nonsense about my friend. this isnt funny at all! imagine other people came to your blog and started abusing the ability to view YOUR blog. how does it feel? and ii can tell iu you wont feel good. so ii hope this kinda things wont ever happen again. if this still continues ii will do something about it and ii can swear iu wont be able to log on my blog EVER AGAIN..

ii just can understand why people like to do this kinda thing.. ii thought ii wont be the one to get it but in the end i'm still affected..WTH.. my laopo was affected by it previously but not anymore.. do iu really hate that person so SO DAMN much to do this kinda things? do iu want to know how ii think about it? VERY VERY CHILDISH! if iu really hate him and think that he is a torn on your flesh then go over his blog and tell him who iu are and how much iu hated him. why using others people name? if iu think this is gonna affect our friendship then, iu are wrong. i hope 'iu' can put yourself in my shoes and think about it.. if iu still think that iu're right then, ii shall not comment more..

hmms, after saying all this ii feel much better.. just want to speak up my mind cos iu wont feel any better bottling it up..


my baobeii phone is sent for servicing and it causes alot of inconvenice.. but its okies cos as long as iu got the xin* with or without a phone doesnt really make a very big difference. just met him just now before my school as he was not schooling today and also ii was late for my school so ii went to meet him first instead.haas.. seeing him is never enough.. even when ii see him ii still missed him.. and the bad part was when we part ii will miss him more badly...ii will...

`miss his hugs

`miss his smile

`miss him watching me

`miss him sayang-ing me

and loads and load more..hopes he feel the same way too.=)


sian have to attend OIT class later and tolerate 5 hours of work.. although its not that tiring but its the amount of time ii have to exchange for the price=25bucks only. though it isnt a big amount but when iu add it up 25bucks really make a difference..

saw laopo photo album today so sweet nors she paste all the photos with her laogong.. ii also want! haas.. as ii was busy seeing all the photos she has on her album on the journey to school we missed our stop.. missing the stop is not that bad but it was the rain that spoil everything..arghhs.. we have to walk all the way back to school.. baobeii even help me to straighten my messy hair using the straightener just now but the rain spoilt the whole thing.. dont want to talk about it anymore.. so ke xi.. cos its like in a million millions years he ever do this.. so much cherish. but all thanks to the damn rain..

sian, zhongyi still dont believe the tagg thingy isnt me who did it.. hate to convince people but ii even hated me, being misunderstood.

guess ii end here then..the self access room is freezing cold for me to go on..lols

WO AI NI ! ! !

MIN

LATE
I'M ALWAYS LATE.

now having Mrs Tay OIT class and i'm secretly updating my blog.. hopes* she doesnt catch me!! LOLS! feel so scary sia.. like i'm doing something bad like that..

ii was late for school again..slept at 1.30 am as ii was watching princess hour with my bro.since i'm not in the sleeping mood.. so we started watching from 10pm straight to 1.30am.lols ii just cant stand the temptation sia.. ii still intend to continue watching as ii wanted to know what was the ending like..but my big bro insist on sleep as we both have to wake up early for school tmr..

ii woke up at 7 initially cos ii had a bad dream.. ii forgot what the whole dream was about but all ii know was ii was bitten by a huge snake and the next moment ii was awake by shock.. still rmb how the blood flow out from my toe it was damn bloody.. ii dont wanna talk more cos the big snake attack me more then once..it scares the hell out of me!!

reached school at 10.05am for the Giordano scholarship.. hmms going home soon so i'll stop here then..

anyway ii am going to see him real soon! haas!


loving him!

MISSES*
I WANT TO BE THERE
THERE WHERE YOUR HEART
WANTS ME TO BE..

ii am missing him already. though we just met ystd night... but time is never enough for us. cos ii still have to go home and so does he. how ii wish for forever.. i'm really sorrie for neglecting your feeling ystd..sometimes ii will do the things where ii want it to be and yet forget about iu.ii am glad that iu told me abt it rather then keeping to yourself.. at least iu didnt keep it to yourself.. but ii hate it when iu say something and yet stopped halfway.. ii will think alot.. really.. rmb we promised to say and clarify things whenever we have doubts dont we?... hope this wont change.. maybe iu have your reasons.. ii will respect your decision. cause we both dont want to lose each other..right?



ii am going give him a surprise today.. not really a surprise..hees.. secret!hees..



seeing him smilingly happily makes me feel contented and happy..especially when ii make an effort to do something and he appreciate it..cant wait for my birthday man! sure gonna have loadsa fun together..ii was late for school today..instead of laopo being late..OMG! this is real bad..gotta change CHANGE!!! or else my attendance percentage will drop again.. resulting to seeing MRS Tay again, she will scream at me for sure. whenever she talk to me ii just kinda feel the pressure she has on me.. like a monster who's going to eat me up! damn scary sia..dont even dare to think of it..hais.


i'm down with a flu again.. hell.. wondering when it ever leaves me..so torturing..cant even have a proper sleep at night..today's weather is so cold.. ii nearly have my jacket on most of the time. cant imagine why laopo still complain that she's hot..she even went to CO-OP just for the air con.. lame right..lols..i'm thinking when will he finally blog sia.. no entry, nothing at all.. hmms. link him also no use one cos it will be a miracle if he ever blogs.. cause he dont even know..will teach him when the both of us have the time ii guess. but this day dont even seems to come..ii wish, i WIsh and ii WISH...

60more mins and i'll be out of school already..didnt even touch on the project.. only my LAOPO doing.. so SO HARDWORKING SIA!

PRAISE !!!

PRAISE!LOLS..

i'm ending here.. cos ii gotta be hardworking also!haas..



love love him =)) min-sen

kBox Day

ii was late for school today.. as my bro was watching vcd -princess hour- in the middle of the night ystd. ii can even hear the conversation loud and clear.so damn disturbing..nvm.. the worse part is me, sleeping with a blocked nose and a slight sore throat..its like so uneasy and xin ku.. ii can only breathe with my mouth.. that's why ii cant wake up in the morning for school.. qian was early today so she called me up and tell her ii will be late. sometimes its very frustrating to wake up without sufficient sleep. ii will lose my temper easily and ii will get very emotional.. VERY.. so stay FAR FAR away from me when ii didnt sleep well.. if anyone provokes me i'll KILL 'em!! lols..hard to say..hehe.

my big brother woke me up. he keep buzzing beside me calling me to wake up just because of his hair.. lame right.. ii was so damn fareup ii even scolded him thinking that i'll drove him off but after awhile iu guess what happen? he came back to the room and started the whole thing again.. ii didnt even have the mood already by then.. so ii woke up reluctantly.. hell him....

reach school around ten plus although my lesson ends at 11am.. furthermore, ii have 4hrs of break today..ii was suppose to have push cart duties today but it was cancelled so we went to kbox instead.. not the two of us its three...tynie came along too.. lols first time go kbox with malay sia.. cause we'll always sing chinese.. thought she'll feel left out after that.. but it was fun! ii ask her to choose all the english songs to sing.. funny sia.. first time go kbox sing all sorts of english songs.. serious speaking ii enjoyed myself.. though my voice dont sound so nice due to the stupid block nose of mine.. the price is also afforable at 11 plus .. also to add on the lunch bento set was satisfying and it tastes good compared to the last time ii went with qian at lunch hour the food was like under expectation meaning=WORSE!

Mrs Tay didnt come today so we were left alone to do our project.. first time see qian so engross in doing project sia.. if only she is serious in school stuff all the time..ii wish. its a good improvement wors.. not bad not bad...haas. and here am ii blogging..

i'll be meeting him later!! yay! suppose to give him a surprise today to accompany him for dinner one..but since he is going to bbdc as he has to acc Martin to go there for his bike lesson..Bully him sia..which is around my house area. then there's isnt a need for that already.. today no need to work.. so happy.. can slack at home also..lols.miss him sia.. few more hours to go before seeing him.. so i'll take a nap first..hees..

shall blogg next time =))


love love him <3 min

REVIEW OF LAST WEEK

hmms i'm in school now.. suppose to be ms chin lessons now but she was not in school today as she went for course..ii was damn early for school today.. reach school at 8.10am although ii was already late but i've not been able to reach school that early ever since my sept semester start.haas. hope i'll keep it like this for now..


ii had a great week last week.. busy celebrating my laopo bdae and being with him! its our 1mth 2 days back. although its not like being tgt for a very long time but its a new start for both of us.i'm really grateful that he was very understanding and extremly sweet to me all this while. hopes* we can always be like this..=)) and ii really hope he feel the same way too..


ii went to wildwildwet with him, qian and her laogong last sat.. the concept is actually quite similar to jurong swimming complex but it was much more fun with the additional stuff like the U slide that makes me scream like hell when ii partner with qian. for others was like normal nors...we went for shower at 6plus ii guess. after that we went to lau par sat for dinner.. its was a very satisfying one! with sambal stingray, sambal sotong, sambal kangkong, fried prawn balls and hotplate beancurd. also not to miss out.. satay! ended up with a bloated stomach and ii hardly can walk!lols..


*sorrie to let laopo wait for us wors*


the most impt day was on thurs cos ii can finally get to see him after 5 days! as i've been busy. working, studying and celebrating qian bdae.there was a heavy downpour on that day which nearly spoil my mood on going out.. -ii was smelling nice and fresh went ii was outside my door but not long after ii was nearly drenched in the rain on my way to the bustop.. the rain was too heavy although ii was using an ambrella.. finally met him whan ii board 188 as ii was suppose to go to woodlands to service my phone but the bad part was ii forgot my warranty card! STUPID ME! but at least he bought a cute piglet bolster for qian..then we went to MS to celebrate his so called bestfriend bdae.. althought the atmosphere was quite awakard cos ii feel so out of place, further more his fren gf all wear until very retro only me wear normal meang=spaghetti strap with skirt like ii was from outer space sia.dont mention lers. xie xie him for being with me all that while..=))

work ystd without my phone so it was like something missing nors..cos nn msg him and cant listen to my music.. ii really cant imagine myself without a phone man!. it was like without some organs inside of me. too impt to miss out.. also ii must thank him for bringing my phone to my hse.. gtg lers..



<3 minmin love love him! <3

MY NEW BLOG

TATA!!! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~ PRESENTING MY NEW BLOG!!!

hmms, ii changed the previous skin cause ii cant get to link to my archives so ii guess ii just give up. so ii change to this one... although its not a perfect one but ii'm quite satisfied..=))

today my baobei never send me to school wors.. kinda disappointed. but ii know if he can make it he will... aiya at least he's resting well can already..he's going to simei ite today so it will be a long long journey home for him... hopes* he's not tired..

i'm missing him already..ii can only meet him up on fri and it seems like a few thousand hours apart.but at least ii get to hear his voice..

qian bdae is coming!!! time flies fast... she's sure gonna enjoy herself being with the one she loves and celebrating with a couple of friends including me! getting a perfect present for he is a pain in the neck cause ii dont really know what's best for her.. just kinda fear that the present ii got for her is not what she wanted... as iu know she is very hard to please =X LOLS!

so fast that the ending of 2006 is here.. ii want to be always 18!!! sad.. gonna be 19 soon... and then follow by 20, 21, 22.........and that means becoming an OLD WOMAN!!! lols. how am ii going to accept that when the time comes?? haas ii'm thinking too muchh! wahhaa

ii am gonna be real busy this week..

MON & TUE-working
WED-Shop
THUR-celebration
FRI-Dating
SAT-wild wild wet
SUN-Work again

damn busy..




ending here~








loving him~

POEM FOR HIM*

POEM FOR HIM

When I'm with you,eternity is a step away,

my love continues to grow,with each passing day.

This treasure of love,I cherish within my soul,how much I love you...

you'll never really know.

You bring a joy to my heart,I've never felt before,with each touch of your hand,

I love you more and more.

Whenever we say goodbye,whenever we part,

know I hold you dearly,deep inside my heart.

So these seven words,I pray you hold true,

"Forever And Always,I Will Love You."

missing him*

hmms, just reach school only. dont know why i've been always late for school. cant reach school on time de..=( still cant kick the habit.. teacher ask us to logg on to our ite website for dont know what test but ii forgot my password =X so ii shall blog instead.hees..

studying is always so boring one. but ii am quite contented with my current new school schedule. cos its dismissal time is earlier than the previous semester.plus we only have two or three module per day either com lab or aircon room so ii wont have to stay in non air con room classes cos the weather is always killing me ! as humid as always, but ii kinda miss the sleeping days where ii can lie on the old school table sleeping or day dreaming...


DREAM DREAM DREAM ! ! !


LAOPO ARH LAOPO ARHS WHERE ARE IU?
this laopo of mine should be still sleeping like a big pigg at home! nobody acc me again!!!guess ii just have to get used to it. still say she want to come school early today..zzz..but ii already predicted she wont=X lols..anyway its not miss chin class right now..lazy to call her nars..hees =X call her once just now but ii think is better to let her sleep.. Mrs Ang is looking for her again! haas..AS USUAL.

met my dear ystd! haas! he has fallen into my trap! feel so glad to see him happy.. know what... sometimes its good to give surprises cause it helps to improve relationship ii guess..ii have a good planning ahead! ii had plan to bring him to somewhere for next month. hopes* he like it!.. hmms.. cant mention here incase he sees.. shhh.. shhh..lols today feel so gulity wors. cos ii didnt replies him then fall asleep lers and let him wait until 12plus.. DUI BU QI! ii always feel so guilty when i'm like that.. feel so apologetic! but no matter what ii want go through a good and bad times with him..=))


hais.. dont feel like going for break.. not hungry at all..


miss him wors.. how how? hais.. sian..


guess ii will have to end here lers... cos its break time!

sick~

hais. ii've been sick for a week already. and thanks god i'm now on my way to recovery.

* all thanks to my boy who has been with me showing me care and concern..hees.. he has been especially sweet to me all this while..dont know what ii might be without him..*

meiqian was not here today so i've got no choice but to ask zhongyi to acc me. he take advantage of my sickness and keep bullying me! hell him! hais, ii dont seem to be friendly in school so only have some friends only.. but got qian can already. provided if she attend school often...

oh ya. i'm not going to malaysia already. due to the fact that ii get broke very easily and ii think ii have to change the habit or else ii will have no money to survive..and just hate the times when ii am so broke where ii still have to think whether ii have enough money for the next meal. what can ii do? blame myself for being spendthrift..

and this someone which is leonard msged qian ystd and me too.. he just dont seems to get out of my life and haunt me once in a while. sending msges.. saying how he loved me and wish me happiness and all.. CRAPS! GET OUT OF MY LIFE ! qian told me ystd abt him going stead with jenna one of my darling's baobei and broke up not long after.. for goddness sake pls move on and grow up!

OMG! qian bdae is coming and ii still haven think of something to buy for her..how? she dont seems to be lack of anything.. difficult!

hmms anyway whatever it is hope she like it..

ending here..

no title in mind

hmms have not been updating my blog for so long..

shall summarize..

erms, ii have been slacking, working cum shopping-provided if ii have the money- this is what ii have been doing..

ii guess when ii get my pay tmr ii will have loads of plans already. ii want to go malaysia! most imptly.. mostly will be next month my LAOPO BDAE MONTH ! ! one good thing is that ii can buy loads of nice tops or anything for my laopo bdae! which wont cause me much and furthermore ii can gat loads of things.

thinking about what to buy for her bdae present really crack my brains cos............

ii want it to be special! hees.

kinda pity when my laopo is not around with me when ii go malaysia cause she will always give me good opinions and shop like nobody's business!

ii want to earn more and save more!!!

oh ya! ii have been a great granddaughter this week.. cause ii was accompanying my grandmother for these few days...really kinda miss her presence when ii am at home..

guess ii will stop here then.

nothing special..

[STUDY WEEK!!]

didnt really did much today..

ii was late for school AGAIN. wonder when can ii stop this bad habit of mine.

woke up at nine today cause SOMEONE didnt call me!! =(

ks lorhs say want to wake me up also never... sigh..

before school ii went over to anns place cause she wanted to borrow my heels.

after that meet qian before school so we can go school together..

hmms boring day today..

my big brother dont have to attend school today because of his upcoming exams next week that is same as mine..

but she to have two days off!!! yet ii cant =(

STUPID SCHOOL!!

should have gave us few days off so that ii will be able to study myself. just dont know why when ii am in school ii dont even have the slightest mood to study.. but ii have the mood for SLEEPING ! ! LOLS!

zhong yi ask me to tag at his blog as SOMEONE by the name of Ash critise zy at his blog. WTH!! ii dont understand why people like to do this kinda things so LAME!! hmms.. whatever it is its none of my business.. but ii hopes* no one will disturb me!! or else ii will give him/her HELL!!

just hate all this stupid acts..

ending here..*miss iu

UNTITLED

hmms, alot of things had been happening around me and my friend recently and make me stopped and think about all this.

BGR

all the examples around me makes me feel so much disappointed in all of this.. GUYS what makes them having the authority to hurt girls over and over again. ii thought GUYS CHANGE but in the fact they DONT.

take my ex for example. he has been letting me down times and times again and again.. say ii will change this and that making promises. EMPTY PROMISES ii mean. but after all this when we had already broke up of quite long he came back to my life saying that he's a CHANGED PERSON. ii nearly trusted him. cause he became very caring towards me crying in front of me saying that he missed the days we had.

ii make a stand saying ii wont WONT give him a chance but deep inside my heart ii felt consoled, as he had changed but yet, YET...

after sometimes, ii found out from others what he did and all meaning infront of other girls he sweet talk and all but infont of me he look so PITYFUL ii thought he repent and decided to be better but all this changed my mind about GUYS.

COLD BLOODED CREATURES!!

not everyone knew what actually he did to me when we were together how MUCH HURT and PAIN he had cause but yet ii still patch back once and once again with him. maybe LOVE IS BLIND. now, when ii looked back at the times how SILLY, STUPID AND FOOLISH ii was. ii regretted all that ii've done ii shouldnt have been so SO soft hearted!

this incident changed me. TOTALLY. the big impact that this incident caused me makes me becomes another person,.and ii did learn alot.

now.. ii had met another person. someone that makes me stop and hesitate whether should ii changed my conception because of him.

he's just someone ii think out of 100 hundred guys he's the only good one.. he's different from all of them. he stands out.. he makes me willing to change, but ii still have my doubts my worries but ii trust he wont disappoints me. one of my close guy friend told me he's not good cause the nature of a guy is bad and it will really be a miracle if he's good.

but ii chose to trust my heart...


went to anns house ystd.. as she herself also had some problems between her guy.. ii thought this guy will treat her well. but never did ii expect another disappointment. in the beginning he treated anns like an princess buys ring, roses anything just to make anns happy.. after some time, everything changed.. he dont meet her often giving her all sorts of excuses.. sigh.. ii really wdont know what to say but ii told anns that if he's heart is not there what the use of continuing the reltationship pointless right?

but as iu know LOVE IS BLIND.

but last time when anns broke off with her guys she always take it as nothing had happen but right after sly, everything changed.. all girls wants to be loved right? its their nature..

so ii accompanied her at her place and had dinner there.. ii was so tired and ii fall asleep on her bed not long after... woke up at 9 plus and ii was suppose to go back home and change and acc qian to eat as ii promised her.. but its getting very late and we both had school tmr, ii know she's kinda disappointed and all i've to say is I'M SORRY LAOPO!!.. anns even tempt me when she's smoking but ii least i'm able to stand the temptation although it was really temptating!! love changes people ii guess.

when home after ii pass cig to anns cause she wants to smoke and i've no choice but to ask weiqiang for it.. since he stays near. met him downstairs anns hse sat for like 10mins and ii went back. nothing to talk much anyway... but he is damn SKINNY!!

before ii go home ii stop by at ks hse and leave a lollipop for him.. hees!

he likes cola flavour!!

went home and had my second dinner!! it was fabulous! MUMMY'S COOKING IS THE BEST ! ! LOVE HER TO BITS ! went to sleep right after my meal cause they say ii can gain fat doing that..

my target is to gain 4kg by this year and i'll maintain.. hopes* ii can.. cause ii dont want people to call me BAMBOO!! =( SOBS..

thats all for today.. tata..

EXAMS COMING!!!=(

hmms. didnt have the chance to blog since...

exams is coming. just next week only.. hmms, wonder how can ii cope with work and exams. but ii got no choice cause ii want to earn more money!!!hees.. so ii can save more, shop more, enjoy more!! haas.. girls are like that ii guess.. that includes me!



[LAST THURSDAY]

once ii got my pay last thursday.. qian and me went straight to marina sq and shop.. cant wait already!! most of the clothes are all my type.. but before we are suppose to go for dinner we stop by blossom.. and we got stuck in the shop for nearly half an hour ii guess.. trying on this and that.. as qian was not in a good mood she was in a very good mood for shopping-spurging- in the end we left the shop with two big bags.. ii bought one heels and two tops wherelse qian bought three tops and two heels!! a lot more than me.. she nearly spend half of her pay her..

after that we went to thai express to have our dinner!! we ended up very full!! and that cost us 30 over dollars..




[LAST FRIDAY]

the very next day -friday- which was teacher's day.. met qian at westmall in the afternoon as we are meeting zhongyi and malcolm for lunch before we go for pool at bukit timah pool factor.. ii bought another heels at mad and a cute small white plain bag. it was cute!! haas.. guess ii dont have much to save for the month..

on that day we play pool for about 7 hours ii guess.. but my skills are still as bad!! lose to malcolm =( he was quite good at it.. qiian aiming was good too!! as for zhong yi, he gotta improve more before he can beat the three of us! LOLS.ii was DEAD BEAT on that day!!!
ks asked me to accompany him to pasir ris to attend his fren birthday party -ii was OVER THE MOON!!- can even cancel my date with suzhen because of it but he last minute msg me saying ii better dont go cause he scare the guys there will disturb me.. quite disappointed but at least he intent to... so my date with susan is not cancelled!

suppose to meet anns as ii promised her to, but ii was just too tired too..

felt quite guilty when ii didnt go over her place..i'm SO BAD!

hopes* she will understand.

the very minute ii reached home suzhen called me, asked me whether ii want to go chiong with jai hui and her anot.. ii was quite tempted. but ii turn her now cause the thought of taking cab (so ex!) after the whole thing changed my mind. since i'm tired might as well have a good night sleep! hees..




[LAST SATURADY]

actually had plans to go bugis with suzhen one.. but she had a sever hangover the night before so we cancelled our bugis plans and decided to meet up in the evening for dinner and movies..

and ii can also make use of the whole afternoon to finish up my reflection journal about the bazzar, although ii wake up very early in the morning to do it about nine plus.. while msging ks.hees.. as he have to go for his practical and theory driving lessons..

meet suzhen and had kfc for dinner..

she wanted to watch ghost game but ii wanted to watch devil wears parda.
-cause qian sure wont watch with me one.. cause she's saving money-
we went to the cinema and check the time slots and whether ghost game is showing at the cinema but it was not. YEAH! ii can watch my movie instead. it was a good movie really enjoyed it. ii can even watch it again for ten over times if someone is willing to fork out the money. haas. bleahs!




[LAST SUNDAY]

ii told a white lie to my manager saying ii am not feeling well so cant work on that day.. so bad of me right? hees.. instead ii went to town with qian.. as she was not meeting joseph on that day.. bought a top for 30 over dollars.. its was nice!

met ks at night with qian cause they live in the same block.. but something happened.. it was bad.. but since its already been resolved so ii shall not comment.. but ii am really happie about it.. but that was the very first time ii met him cause the last two time was not counted as we're not friends yet.





[YSTD]

hmms, did something special for him and hopes* he will be as sweet as the lollipop!wahaha..

gotta go for my lunch already..tata.

*had a talk with section head today =(

just came out of the staff room just now..

guess what? meiqian, joyce and me went to see the section head just now!!

when mrs tay left the room the whole room was filled with nothing but...SLIENCE.

the atmosphere was so so tense so SCARY!!!

thought that he-mr tan our section head- is gonna give us a thrashing! but he just talk about the reason why we are seeing him today cos we always skip school!!

hmms, guess ii cant skip school anymore or else......

ii will be OUT of clementi ite.='(

gonna be very very good girl already. cant skip school.

MUST ATTEND SCHOOL EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!

OMG!! so so...

NO LIFE!!!

sigh...

can even have a peacful sleep in the morning in my wonderland...

ii dont like waking up wish ii could just sleep until the afternoon..hees =X

oh ya! just finish my SBM bazaar project three ystd!!! YEAH! ii was so exhausted after the whole thing. cause ii was trying to sell all my stuff what. must convince the customer the customer to buy my stuff. say until my salivia dried up and i'm sweating all over due to the damn humid weather!!!

in the end all my stuff ii give discount... no choice must try to sell all my stuff... since my cost price is not that expensive what.. hees.

thought that ii will lose money but in the end still got profit hees.. its 10 over dollars but ii am really contented. ii wont be going home with an empty wallet!

wahahaha..

the bazaar finally ended at 2.30pm all our lessons were cancelled on that day!

HURRAY!

can go home early.

meiqian and me took a cab home.

cause TOO TOO TIRED!

went ii reach home ii fall asleep on my bed not long after qian msg me.

ask me accompany her go westmall..

so ii dragged myself up and have a bathe

ii was early when ii reach westmall reach at 6.20pm although ii meet qian at 6.30pm.

so ii decided to walk to the 187 busstop to wait for her since i am at the interchange.

waited for qian for nearly 25mins!!!

she was always LATE!

sh call me telling me he was released from school so ii told him i am around westmall so he come and find me.

not long after ii hang up the phone ii walked straight back to the interchange and the skies suddenly turns grey...

not long after followed by a heavy downpour..

met sh and ii called qian... she was still at home..DOTS

as it was raining very heavily so ii decided to cancel my plans of meeting qian.

accompany sh for a few hours and went home after that...

hmms.. going down to citylink to gt my pay today!!

YEAH!!

GOODBYES to my broke days!lols!

going for a shopping spree with suzhen on saturaday since both of us get our pay already.

we are also going to have pasta!!! sure add alot of cheese on my pasta like qian does ! LOLS!

THATS ALL FOR MY ENTRY TODAY!

hees ending here...

Been working.BORED

Been working for the past two days meaning no break for me this weekend. Although my shift is in the morning but didnt really go out.

sunday ii was nearly late for work, suppose to wake up at 8 am but too lazy to get up until 8.30 so it was quite a rush. didnt even have breadfast.reach my workplace about 9.50am sharon was already there. actually i'm not working on sunday but carrie got some urgent matters so she went back to malaysia. but the advantage is that ii will be able to earn more.haas. qian was in the afternoon shift, hardly work on the same day with her one. maybe my boss scare we will always talk and neglect our job. suppose to meet sh of dinner but last min got something cropped up so everything was cancelled.

saturaday same still working. but also morning shift. ii alway liked working morning shift cos ii will be able to end work early and can go out after that.

last fri qian and ii went to je kpool to play pool with zhong yi and malcom. really have lots of fun. and we're going this coming friday.. kinda addicted to it lers.haas. looking forward to fri. hees

gotta end here. going for next class..

*STUPIDITY

feel kinda stupid today to have cried infront of my ite teachers. **** them all! say its okies if ii provide an MC but yet find all sorts of faults with me.

ii feel so sick now..

ii feel so so uncomfortable even when ii was asleep just now..

just finish role play today so i'll have the last one to do and i'm done.

i feel so lousy iin everything ii do.. sigh. whats happening to me this past few days.

freaking nono MOOD!

still have to go for work later.

ii just desperately need someone to get me out of HERE.

to somewhere without worries.

just DAYDREAMING -me

hate to be control hate to be tied down by certain things.ii want to soar as high like nobody's business~

okies ii dont know what am all blabbering all about. just strictly some silly thoughts of mine.





ystd 22 of august.
ii did not attend school due to insufficient sleep. called meiqian and she was still sleeping too. until 12 plus then ii wake up. called qian and she was already awake watching tv. meet her at 2pm to see the doctor's for MC. also clearing some of my doubts. so the three of us-qian, joseph and me went to bb polyclinic to see the doctor. although ii'm the first one to register but ii am the last one to finish seeing the doctor. ii was asked to go to the lab and vision test. doctor say that my eye sight will get worse after 6mth - 1 yr time. by then ii will have to get a spects.

so we spent about 1hr plus in the clinic but joseph was not issued an MC so we have to go somewhere else for a doctor.

qian was late for her work when joseph was done. qian asked me to go over to suntec kbox to get the shirt but i'm just too lazzy to do so. (sorrie ahs, sat okies)

ii even left my phone with qian. until when ii was reaching home, then ii realises my phone was not with me!! it really scare the hell out of me. but ii recalled the phone was with them. ii wanted to make a call urgently to make sure my phone was with them. after some consideration ii decided to pluck up my courage to ask an outsider whether she can lent me her phone. its was a success on my first attempt. afterall my phone is much much more important.

so met joseph at dover at 7pm to get back my phone. ii was late actually. anyway he's going to wait for qian to finish her work.(such a good husband right)lols.

i'm feeling alot better now ii guess.

after saying this much.

still have to take pills. although qian says no need, but ii just want to give it a try. hopes that my headache wont pester me anymore!

`WORKING WEEK!!*

`hmms. now at self acess room with qian. she's blogging and so am ii!! =)

this week ish so busy!!

ii am going to work for three days in this week still have to prepare for my school bazaar..

so ii cannot go out and have fun!!! ='( sobs.

maybe can cos ii think ii will be free by this weekend hees..

but ii am going broke soon wors..lols

hmms. have been working on sunday.. ii am bored stiff ystd!! so so slack! cos sunday marhs sure no people one. ii was working with rachel. she my besties partner! go pick and bite mummum. chicken with mushroom rice that cost 3 bucks.(qian gotta try it!) cos it taste not bad wors most importantly ii dont have to walk all the way to marina sq foodcourt.TOO LAZY.

suppose to go escape on sunday.
anns say she wake up will give me a call but ii waited until the afternoon! ii msg her and she called me. saying the whole thing was cancelled and she's with xiaobai. she even ask me to meet her cos she going bugis can go gai gai. when ii meet her, xiaobai and his frens. she said she was damn bored cos she dont know what to say to xiaobai's frens.lols

we took 197 to bugis and they went to si ma lu temple to pray. so ii tagged along. ii feel abit extra lorhs. what spoils my mood was they didnt plan to shop at all. so after praying and all we took bus back to je. it was like a wasted trip to and fro.

reach home cos ii already plan to have dinner out with my mom. went ii reach home she was still bathing so ii waited for her until ii dozed off.. wth iu know what? she nearly bath for 1 and a half hour!!! so it was 8pm when she came out from the bath room.

meet kor at redhill as he was there for the 7mth dinner. anyway its been a long time since ii have actually meet up with him. when ii met him he's abit tipsy already still tell me he drink ALITTLE bit only. he was with another guy. last min ask me go ps lorhs and ii was wearing long sleeve and shorts!! but ii went. its the very very first time ii wear so casual wors. but he say i'm not. watched tokyo drift and he doze off in the middle of the show some more its the exciting part and his fren and ii was exchanging gazes cos he was SNORING!!LOL! cos he was having blocked nose.

anyway it was quite fun cos his fren was very humorous..

going to restuarant mummum with qian.

but dont feel like eating wors. she say cant back out cos we've booked the table already.

HAIS~

hope the food taste nice or else i am sure going to grumble..hees

*stops here!!

SORRIE`

hmms. now in school blogging. so alone today cos qian and bell didnt come to school today.. it time for me to get used to all this or else ii will start to skip school.

been having loads of presentations for my three modules next week.

haiis..

once all this ends. my exams will starts. sobs. hate all this. maybe ii am just too lazy to do this and that but its not for me to decide.

i'm working later. dont even have the mood to go work. just want to slack at home doing nothing, sleeping, day dreaming doing bore things.


finally cleared all my bills that ii owed last time. can finally put my mind at ease. not to worry about money and things concerning money. but this also means that ii will have more money to shop! hees.

stupid julian. disturbing me!!

and here comes kris talking to me about my blog..

anyway ystd ii nearly quarrelled with qiann.

jus want to say...

I AM REAL SORRIE!

blamed it on my lousy mood and mybe its because of my menses..

quite bothered by this.

*qiann rmb to go restuarant mum mum with me okies*

-wo men de yue ding-

hmms.. this gotta be a short entry.

and my DA LAN ZHU kor. as me to give her morning call in the end on his phone to silent.lols.

oh ya, and ***** seems so bothered about the way kris tell her off during their presentation and keep saying in class when ctr lesson has yet to start

i'm just wondering when all this disbute can end..

ends here*

#moodiie min#

+`been skipping schools.+

hmms.. ii have been skipping schools for the past two days.

on tuesday ii was late for school ii reach school only at 10am cause i'm just too tired and all so meet qiann at the bus stop berfore class..cause she's always late!=Xhees. on tuesday ii only attented one lesson and the co-op duties and ii went home. thanks to the damn stomach cramp that is nearly driving me crazy.. qian went over my place with me cause she dont want to go work as iu know working is always boring. took a cab home when ii reach home my big brother is already at home. -thought of watching tokoyo drift with qian one- but my brother was doing his homework so cant even on the tv.

went to lie on my bed straight after that.. not long after that ii was in my dreamland leaving qian alone(sorrie wors) but when ii woke up she was fast asleep -.-! hees. wake her up as she need to meet her baobeii laogong at tampines-FAR right- as iu know people tends to be blind when they are in love...LOLS
so ii slack at home after she left watched glass slipper on channel U.

on wednesday my big brother dragged me out of the bed.. although how reluctant ii was. it was a no school day feeling for me. but ii just washed up and prepared for school. took the bus on dot. when ii was about to reach my school qiann msg me saying she dont feel like going school. ii was tempt by her... thought of getting MC but thinking about the waiting time makes me give up the thought.ii even convince qian that no need to get an MC -thats was very bad of me right?- lols

qian acc me home to change into my going out clothes. actually thought of going town and qian wanted to get joseph their 4mth anniversary gift but we went to kbox instead.. its was so so long ii've never go kbox already. anyway my singing just sucks. ii still prefer qian's singing =) . haas.

at night ii msg mrs ang and told her ii dont have a MC for the day and she wanted to meet my parent. that was bad! but ii insisted that my dad was not free and can only meet on sat but sat are teacher's off day. so she ask my dad to called her. ii explained to my dad that ii was not feeling well and all but ii missed out the going out part. =Xhees

[shang yi de huan yan]=X

ii was still late for school today.. sigh. when can ii stop those late comings. exams is coming and i am still not ready for it.. ii just dont want to flunk my exams. guess ii will study when ii am free..

ii wanna go home and have a nice sleep now but ii cant. thought of skipping pe but qian says go for the attendance sake..

BORED!!!

*BUSY BUSY BUSY

hmms been busy spending my free time with my sisters!!! after the breakup with him every part of my life have changed totally and i am enjoying every single part of it. ii just dont know why. but ii just like the way now.

ii know he still haven gave me up.. he have been making effort trying to bring our relationship back, but ii am afraid if ii patch back with him everything will still be the same. ii dont want hurt him again and again. ii really hope he will stop all this. dont want him to spend so much money buying things for me. its not worth it. ii dont know how should ii explain to him so that he would understand what am ii trying to say. he's a good guy, but girls like me dont worth a good guy ii guess. ii want to find someone, someone that will makes my heart beat again.but ii really appreciate all the things he have done for me.

someone has came back to my life again. thats him *leonard* i met him when ii sleptover at ann hse that night when ii celebrate her bdae. cause ann want to smoke as iu know she's the kind that cant live without smoking=X. ii called him cause we have tried all those possible people that stay near ann hse that smokes. but to no avail. he came 10mins ltr after ii called him (thats was quick) and went to buy cig. oh ya and jia wei was with us(she's a girl). the four of us sat at the staircase outside anns hse. so long never see him already the presence of him seems weird. ii was keeping quiet most of the time. dont really know what should ii say. after 20mins ltr we went back to anns hse and he went back home.

after that day, he msg me asking me whether is it possible that we can patch back saying all those stuffs. asking me to consider and all.

okies, change of topic. went to jurong point and celebrate anns bdae on sat night. suppose to get a strawberry cake for her but ii cant find any so ii bought a rasberry cake instead. do iu know where we cut the cake? it was at the third floor staircase. so funny right. only some girls like suzhen, karen, and the other girl forgot her name lers plus anns and me. we cant find kaixin as she was with navin so we got separated. so we just carry on with our plans. suzhen went off after she saw the cake and taken some pictures. so left with four of us. but we left jurong point shortly after that.

anns broke up with laihe but stead with xiaobai. its only two days after the breakup and that was fast right. ii believe he is a good guy the way he talk and his character is good. ii really hope he can treat anns well.

know jiawei when she came over to anns house in the middle of the night on sat. ii dont really liked her as she had given me a bad impression on national day as she was with wenjie they'll and a group of girls so xia lan!! fiona was with them too ii even smiled at her. anns told me that fiona change a lot. from good to bad. at least she is not smoking and all and she doesnt stick with stepf anymore. they were once good good sister but ii dont know what really happen to them.

went out with lynn ystd. (she was my primary school friend and we used to be very close that time) ii suggested to go juction 8 it was a damn bored place. thought ii can meet up with kl and reagan but all got something on. sigh. miss them so much.

reach home and acc my big brother to westmall.

nearly quarrelled with my cousin -huizi- as she was really getting on my nerves!!! really cant stand her attitude any longer. sigh. why she become like this. cause of her stubbornness she give up her future.

ii guess i've to stop here!!! late for sbm class!! =X



miin*

` been having late nights

hmms.. life is as usual.. ystd my sch was celebrating national day and i was involved in the bazaar. selling junk food.. qian and me had already spent around 50bucks buying the food and all. i make roche roses, thout people will buy but it was not what i expected. becos of the bazaar thingy i didnt have enough sleep.

everything cropped up, as we prepared the stuff at the very last minute so we didnt have this and that. we were so fcuk up. arghh.. qian was so du lan also.. say next time better dont get involved in this kinda thing. we didnt even make profit.

the fun thing was we went to the huanted hse at LT but we need to pay 2bucks for the admission fee. i thout it was very scary as the group before us went in shouting like hell. i was with zhongyi and qian (i was late and they were waiting for me sorrie didnt mean it wors) when we went in the whole place was so dark that we could not even see a thing only the light stick on the stairs to show us the steps. we dont even know where to walk so we was stuck there in the darkness complaining we dont know where to go. i even knocked on the chair all along. the scary part was when a hand grabbed qian at her leg-qian shouted and so am i- lols.

i ended up with blue black all over my leg.
it hurts!

hmms. i am going to esplanade with ann they'll today, to see the fireworks.hees. slept over at anns hse ystd. still help her to do housework in the middle of the night we swept the floor, mopped the floor and change the bed sheet. it was so tiring !!! so we went to sleep after bathing.

gonna stop here. dont know how to carry on lerrs.tata.

*better off alone . .

hmms, two days eversince the break up. he was hospitalised as he slipped and fall. his back was hurt. but was discharged ystd. last mintue have to go back to work no matter how unwilling i was. i should be resposible in my work i guess. dont wanna be a burden to my collegues. so i went to work instead, if i am not goin to go susan will have to do full shift instead and she msg me complaining... so i guess i just have to go.

when i reach there the shop was packed with loads of customer with only pinghwa and susan as rachel went for her break. went to change into my uniform shortly to help out as too much doubting customer needs help. anyway it only for 5 hr and i will be release from work. time pass quite quickly as it was sunday. slacking day. gotta go for work ltr too. my shoulder is aching due to mopping and vacumm of the floor...

he called my workplace last night.. meet him after my work... he was with guowei, sigh. he shouldnt have come since he just got discharge from the hospital. he passed me a bag of things. i didnt see what it was until i got home.

during the journey home guowei was smiling and laughing at me for no good reasons, the atmosphere was very awkward he looked so sad with tears nearly spilling out and there guowei was laughing.. wth! and i was infected by him too! but i tried not to..he offered to send me home but he gave up after i insist that he shld go home and rest well instead.

oh ya, when i got home i finally dare to look inside the bag to find out what was inside. its a baby mickey and minnie that was what i saw when i was with him previously at marina sq. guowei told me he spend 30 over dollars on the machine to get it. he also bought flowers. three red roses which meant i love iu. i admit i was touched but i know i cant. i need time to think it over. but i can say chances of us being together is low.

having monday blues todae. have to go work... dampens my mood when i think about working. sigh. have to get over and done with..

*if i another chance to choose i'll hope all these doesnt hav a start

ii guess i've hurt him again. i initate a break up, i know i cannot go on any longer with him so its better for me to speak up earlier.
went out with him ystd. i was in a bad mood due to insufficient sleep but i controlled. we didnt even know where to go. as usual we took the train first and decide ltr. i did not tell him where i went the day before i know i should but i kept quiet until he ask me what time did i sleep ystd. i told him i went out with anns in the middle of the night to meet laihe but i did not tell him the whole story until he ask.i went to ke cheng's hse after that, jus watch a movie and fall asleep till the next morning. i slept at 5.40am-the reason i didnt have enough sleep-absurb i guess.

i can see from his face that he was very very angry but he controlled. he ask me why i go even i know he dont like it i just kept quiet all along cause i dont know what to say. dont know how to speak up my mind due to lack of communication with him. but he keep asking why did i become like this not the me last time. *its was quite embarassing standing around CK tang there with him questioning me and people giving a weird stare when they passed by*

i speak up my mind when we've settled down at the table outside far east. i explained to him why am i like that. he was taken aback he just couldnt believe. for no reason i am like that. i told him what really have gone. he tried to salvage our relationship i know he couldnt bear to let go.
i am just a bad person i guess.. sigh.. all this shouldnt have started. dont wanna think too much.

we parted at jurong east. went to find huizi after that. she wanna go drink we decided to go MU but im not yet eighteen and so is she. went to rush in the end. but they left so earli didnt even enjoy den we left sigh.. forget it.

went to anns hse after that to sleep over.

now i got a message from guowei sayin he was hospitalised. gotta go. there's thing i have to settle.

#been thinking

theres lots of problems with miie recently... ii reali dunno wadd the hell has gotten into miie.. ii hurt the ones ii dunn mean to hurt...

i had separated with him for three days including todae. all this happen cos i bring this topic up. jus suddenly doubt all moi feelins. cos the feelin ish not the same as before lers. maybe we've started to quickly without getting to knoe each other more which will lead to all of these. all started on sundae. just dunno whies dunn feel like goin out suddenly but we alwaes meet on that day de... just feel kinda empty and tired, everydae seems to repeat again and again.. there's no longer anything that ii wanna look forward to anymore.

all this happen jus becos of miie i knoe he's veri puzzled whies i've become like this.. everything was alrite initially but suddenly everything seems to change over night. the one he used to knoe seems so hard to understand, so far from him jus seems like a total stranger... wadd shld ii do? i've regretted. ii shldnt hab brought the topic up. shldnt have suggest for separating. but wads done been done ii cant sae lets take it as nth had happen and pretend.. i knoe the hurt had been cause. wadd ever it ish ii deeply regretted.

i dunnos whether i shld continue this relationship.. dunno hw to face him anymore. wen ii see him ii will recall the time wen i've hurt him.. wad the hell shld i do... arghhs!!
this is moi problems i guess ii shld settle it moiself... but the wae he talks to miie nw seems so strange.. maybe we've become a stranger..

#GOTTA SETTLE THIS ASAP

ii mus also be determine not to skip anymore lessons in schh.. or else ii would be SACK.. hmms still dunn wan moii studies to come to an end. dunn wanna enther workin life wen i am so young... its like everydae repeating the same thing.. BORIN lorhhs..

wanna go bugis and shop wib qian qian!!

either this week or next week... but she sae she ish saving money wors.. anns jio miie out on fri also cannt reject cos i've promised her alreadi haiis~ jus nidd to buy some bottoms to meets moii shoppin target this month... been poor! gort no more clothes to wear go out ler wors.. everytime wear the same old thing.. siian arhhs siian... wanna go bugis try the cheese cake cos susan sae its damn damn nice... reali cannt wait for that dae to come haas..

hmms will end here for now bahhs.. update more next time!

*if lourve ish beautiful as alwaes. miin

MISSES*

wake up at 7am todae to prepare for school, having program at Dover ite.. moii big bro wake miie up pestering miie to style his hair on the back of his head as he cannt reali see properly. as usual. dragged moiself out of da bed although ii slept at 10pm ystd... when ii was abt to go out at 7.40am (alreadi late) qian msg miie telling mie she's not goin, so change of plans. decided to go here place to finish up on moii sbm project and here ii am.. blogging..hees.

didnt meet him ystd.. although ii reach homme quite earli cos i've a splitting headaches even now..

Mrs Tay wanted to see moii parent next week cos i've been skippin lessons.. still haven tell moii mom abt it.. she sure sae she got loads of things to do at hmme and ask miie to approach moii dad and moii dad will sure sae 'i'm busy, ask ur mom to acc iiu' aniwae even moii mom is goin it wont be of any use.. -go for the sake of goin. she dunn care anyway..

now ii am usin the com and there meiqian ish sound asleep.. so pig rite? lols.. hmms wad did she do last nite wen joseph came? lols.. pardon miie!!

suddenly kinda miss alot of people.. miss the times we have tgt.. but we all have our own lives now.. dunn even have time for each other wors..

["ii miss iu all loads!*]

siians.. alwaes bored..

hmms. haven been updating moi blog for veri lonng.. been feeling real bored recently in everything i do... dunn reali knoe wad's gotten into miie.. just quarrel wibb moii mom few days back becos of moii cousin, she just kept on nagging and complain to miie even when i'm slppin.. got so fareup and i go haywire the quarrel ended wen ii broke down and cry on moii bed...ii feel so so alone at that time, ii wann to find someone to talk to, someone who would console miie. ii knoe ii am silly cos ii knoe he will be fast asleep..

ii suddenly remembered wad happen wen ii quarrel with moii mom or when ii feel so unlucky in the past.. he's (L) was there for miie. ALWAYS` but ii knoe he will no longer be. and i am not goin to let it happen... frankly speakin, ii do miss him sometimes.. wen ii got reminded by memories of the past.. ii just need a longer time to get over him ii guess. ii send a message to moii boyfriend telling him how fcuked up ii was when ii quarrelled wit moii mom even though ii knoe he's fast asleep.. but two days ltr moii mom and ii start talkin again and this also tells miie that ii dunn nidd to stay out to aviod her.

Been veri broked ever since the start of sch... dunn even knoe where moii money has gone to.. as moii dad had alreadi gave miie moii allowance of this month.. hais, broke broke broke... need to wait for this sat to get moii pay.. hees.. ii had alreadi plan wadd am ii goin to do with the money-$250 pay moii outstanding bills that i've drag since last yr. $50-the money that i've borrowed from moii mom and the rest of the money is to pamper moiself for a shopping spree..

went out with qiann ystd. cos we had plan to watch a movie -hoodwinkled- so ii dunn get to see moii deardear. went ii told dear that ii am not gonna acc him ystd but ii will be meetin him awhile at westmall since i am watching movie there.. but he seems not happen abt the idea.. nearly quarrelled with him over this.. ii wan moii space and ii hopes he can inderstand miie.. everything was fine wen ii met him. but ii called him wen ii reach home he starts saying all those wrds that ii dunn like..ii reali dunn wann quarrel.. all ii hear was silent on the other end of the phone.. we ended our talk not long..

[`wadever it is ii still dunn wann gib up.]