UNTITLED

hmms, alot of things had been happening around me and my friend recently and make me stopped and think about all this.

BGR

all the examples around me makes me feel so much disappointed in all of this.. GUYS what makes them having the authority to hurt girls over and over again. ii thought GUYS CHANGE but in the fact they DONT.

take my ex for example. he has been letting me down times and times again and again.. say ii will change this and that making promises. EMPTY PROMISES ii mean. but after all this when we had already broke up of quite long he came back to my life saying that he's a CHANGED PERSON. ii nearly trusted him. cause he became very caring towards me crying in front of me saying that he missed the days we had.

ii make a stand saying ii wont WONT give him a chance but deep inside my heart ii felt consoled, as he had changed but yet, YET...

after sometimes, ii found out from others what he did and all meaning infront of other girls he sweet talk and all but infont of me he look so PITYFUL ii thought he repent and decided to be better but all this changed my mind about GUYS.

COLD BLOODED CREATURES!!

not everyone knew what actually he did to me when we were together how MUCH HURT and PAIN he had cause but yet ii still patch back once and once again with him. maybe LOVE IS BLIND. now, when ii looked back at the times how SILLY, STUPID AND FOOLISH ii was. ii regretted all that ii've done ii shouldnt have been so SO soft hearted!

this incident changed me. TOTALLY. the big impact that this incident caused me makes me becomes another person,.and ii did learn alot.

now.. ii had met another person. someone that makes me stop and hesitate whether should ii changed my conception because of him.

he's just someone ii think out of 100 hundred guys he's the only good one.. he's different from all of them. he stands out.. he makes me willing to change, but ii still have my doubts my worries but ii trust he wont disappoints me. one of my close guy friend told me he's not good cause the nature of a guy is bad and it will really be a miracle if he's good.

but ii chose to trust my heart...


went to anns house ystd.. as she herself also had some problems between her guy.. ii thought this guy will treat her well. but never did ii expect another disappointment. in the beginning he treated anns like an princess buys ring, roses anything just to make anns happy.. after some time, everything changed.. he dont meet her often giving her all sorts of excuses.. sigh.. ii really wdont know what to say but ii told anns that if he's heart is not there what the use of continuing the reltationship pointless right?

but as iu know LOVE IS BLIND.

but last time when anns broke off with her guys she always take it as nothing had happen but right after sly, everything changed.. all girls wants to be loved right? its their nature..

so ii accompanied her at her place and had dinner there.. ii was so tired and ii fall asleep on her bed not long after... woke up at 9 plus and ii was suppose to go back home and change and acc qian to eat as ii promised her.. but its getting very late and we both had school tmr, ii know she's kinda disappointed and all i've to say is I'M SORRY LAOPO!!.. anns even tempt me when she's smoking but ii least i'm able to stand the temptation although it was really temptating!! love changes people ii guess.

when home after ii pass cig to anns cause she wants to smoke and i've no choice but to ask weiqiang for it.. since he stays near. met him downstairs anns hse sat for like 10mins and ii went back. nothing to talk much anyway... but he is damn SKINNY!!

before ii go home ii stop by at ks hse and leave a lollipop for him.. hees!

he likes cola flavour!!

went home and had my second dinner!! it was fabulous! MUMMY'S COOKING IS THE BEST ! ! LOVE HER TO BITS ! went to sleep right after my meal cause they say ii can gain fat doing that..

my target is to gain 4kg by this year and i'll maintain.. hopes* ii can.. cause ii dont want people to call me BAMBOO!! =( SOBS..

thats all for today.. tata..