Thursday, July 27, 2006

siians.. alwaes bored..

hmms. haven been updating moi blog for veri lonng.. been feeling real bored recently in everything i do... dunn reali knoe wad's gotten into miie.. just quarrel wibb moii mom few days back becos of moii cousin, she just kept on nagging and complain to miie even when i'm slppin.. got so fareup and i go haywire the quarrel ended wen ii broke down and cry on moii bed...ii feel so so alone at that time, ii wann to find someone to talk to, someone who would console miie. ii knoe ii am silly cos ii knoe he will be fast asleep..

ii suddenly remembered wad happen wen ii quarrel with moii mom or when ii feel so unlucky in the past.. he's (L) was there for miie. ALWAYS` but ii knoe he will no longer be. and i am not goin to let it happen... frankly speakin, ii do miss him sometimes.. wen ii got reminded by memories of the past.. ii just need a longer time to get over him ii guess. ii send a message to moii boyfriend telling him how fcuked up ii was when ii quarrelled wit moii mom even though ii knoe he's fast asleep.. but two days ltr moii mom and ii start talkin again and this also tells miie that ii dunn nidd to stay out to aviod her.

Been veri broked ever since the start of sch... dunn even knoe where moii money has gone to.. as moii dad had alreadi gave miie moii allowance of this month.. hais, broke broke broke... need to wait for this sat to get moii pay.. hees.. ii had alreadi plan wadd am ii goin to do with the money-$250 pay moii outstanding bills that i've drag since last yr. $50-the money that i've borrowed from moii mom and the rest of the money is to pamper moiself for a shopping spree..

went out with qiann ystd. cos we had plan to watch a movie -hoodwinkled- so ii dunn get to see moii deardear. went ii told dear that ii am not gonna acc him ystd but ii will be meetin him awhile at westmall since i am watching movie there.. but he seems not happen abt the idea.. nearly quarrelled with him over this.. ii wan moii space and ii hopes he can inderstand miie.. everything was fine wen ii met him. but ii called him wen ii reach home he starts saying all those wrds that ii dunn like..ii reali dunn wann quarrel.. all ii hear was silent on the other end of the phone.. we ended our talk not long..
[`wadever it is ii still dunn wann gib up.]

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