*had a talk with section head today =(

just came out of the staff room just now..

guess what? meiqian, joyce and me went to see the section head just now!!

when mrs tay left the room the whole room was filled with nothing but...SLIENCE.

the atmosphere was so so tense so SCARY!!!

thought that he-mr tan our section head- is gonna give us a thrashing! but he just talk about the reason why we are seeing him today cos we always skip school!!

hmms, guess ii cant skip school anymore or else......

ii will be OUT of clementi ite.='(

gonna be very very good girl already. cant skip school.

MUST ATTEND SCHOOL EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!

OMG!! so so...

NO LIFE!!!

sigh...

can even have a peacful sleep in the morning in my wonderland...

ii dont like waking up wish ii could just sleep until the afternoon..hees =X

oh ya! just finish my SBM bazaar project three ystd!!! YEAH! ii was so exhausted after the whole thing. cause ii was trying to sell all my stuff what. must convince the customer the customer to buy my stuff. say until my salivia dried up and i'm sweating all over due to the damn humid weather!!!

in the end all my stuff ii give discount... no choice must try to sell all my stuff... since my cost price is not that expensive what.. hees.

thought that ii will lose money but in the end still got profit hees.. its 10 over dollars but ii am really contented. ii wont be going home with an empty wallet!

wahahaha..

the bazaar finally ended at 2.30pm all our lessons were cancelled on that day!

HURRAY!

can go home early.

meiqian and me took a cab home.

cause TOO TOO TIRED!

went ii reach home ii fall asleep on my bed not long after qian msg me.

ask me accompany her go westmall..

so ii dragged myself up and have a bathe

ii was early when ii reach westmall reach at 6.20pm although ii meet qian at 6.30pm.

so ii decided to walk to the 187 busstop to wait for her since i am at the interchange.

waited for qian for nearly 25mins!!!

she was always LATE!

sh call me telling me he was released from school so ii told him i am around westmall so he come and find me.

not long after ii hang up the phone ii walked straight back to the interchange and the skies suddenly turns grey...

not long after followed by a heavy downpour..

met sh and ii called qian... she was still at home..DOTS

as it was raining very heavily so ii decided to cancel my plans of meeting qian.

accompany sh for a few hours and went home after that...

hmms.. going down to citylink to gt my pay today!!

YEAH!!

GOODBYES to my broke days!lols!

going for a shopping spree with suzhen on saturaday since both of us get our pay already.

we are also going to have pasta!!! sure add alot of cheese on my pasta like qian does ! LOLS!

THATS ALL FOR MY ENTRY TODAY!

hees ending here...

Been working.BORED

Been working for the past two days meaning no break for me this weekend. Although my shift is in the morning but didnt really go out.

sunday ii was nearly late for work, suppose to wake up at 8 am but too lazy to get up until 8.30 so it was quite a rush. didnt even have breadfast.reach my workplace about 9.50am sharon was already there. actually i'm not working on sunday but carrie got some urgent matters so she went back to malaysia. but the advantage is that ii will be able to earn more.haas. qian was in the afternoon shift, hardly work on the same day with her one. maybe my boss scare we will always talk and neglect our job. suppose to meet sh of dinner but last min got something cropped up so everything was cancelled.

saturaday same still working. but also morning shift. ii alway liked working morning shift cos ii will be able to end work early and can go out after that.

last fri qian and ii went to je kpool to play pool with zhong yi and malcom. really have lots of fun. and we're going this coming friday.. kinda addicted to it lers.haas. looking forward to fri. hees

gotta end here. going for next class..

*STUPIDITY

feel kinda stupid today to have cried infront of my ite teachers. **** them all! say its okies if ii provide an MC but yet find all sorts of faults with me.

ii feel so sick now..

ii feel so so uncomfortable even when ii was asleep just now..

just finish role play today so i'll have the last one to do and i'm done.

i feel so lousy iin everything ii do.. sigh. whats happening to me this past few days.

freaking nono MOOD!

still have to go for work later.

ii just desperately need someone to get me out of HERE.

to somewhere without worries.

just DAYDREAMING -me

hate to be control hate to be tied down by certain things.ii want to soar as high like nobody's business~

okies ii dont know what am all blabbering all about. just strictly some silly thoughts of mine.





ystd 22 of august.
ii did not attend school due to insufficient sleep. called meiqian and she was still sleeping too. until 12 plus then ii wake up. called qian and she was already awake watching tv. meet her at 2pm to see the doctor's for MC. also clearing some of my doubts. so the three of us-qian, joseph and me went to bb polyclinic to see the doctor. although ii'm the first one to register but ii am the last one to finish seeing the doctor. ii was asked to go to the lab and vision test. doctor say that my eye sight will get worse after 6mth - 1 yr time. by then ii will have to get a spects.

so we spent about 1hr plus in the clinic but joseph was not issued an MC so we have to go somewhere else for a doctor.

qian was late for her work when joseph was done. qian asked me to go over to suntec kbox to get the shirt but i'm just too lazzy to do so. (sorrie ahs, sat okies)

ii even left my phone with qian. until when ii was reaching home, then ii realises my phone was not with me!! it really scare the hell out of me. but ii recalled the phone was with them. ii wanted to make a call urgently to make sure my phone was with them. after some consideration ii decided to pluck up my courage to ask an outsider whether she can lent me her phone. its was a success on my first attempt. afterall my phone is much much more important.

so met joseph at dover at 7pm to get back my phone. ii was late actually. anyway he's going to wait for qian to finish her work.(such a good husband right)lols.

i'm feeling alot better now ii guess.

after saying this much.

still have to take pills. although qian says no need, but ii just want to give it a try. hopes that my headache wont pester me anymore!

`WORKING WEEK!!*

`hmms. now at self acess room with qian. she's blogging and so am ii!! =)

this week ish so busy!!

ii am going to work for three days in this week still have to prepare for my school bazaar..

so ii cannot go out and have fun!!! ='( sobs.

maybe can cos ii think ii will be free by this weekend hees..

but ii am going broke soon wors..lols

hmms. have been working on sunday.. ii am bored stiff ystd!! so so slack! cos sunday marhs sure no people one. ii was working with rachel. she my besties partner! go pick and bite mummum. chicken with mushroom rice that cost 3 bucks.(qian gotta try it!) cos it taste not bad wors most importantly ii dont have to walk all the way to marina sq foodcourt.TOO LAZY.

suppose to go escape on sunday.
anns say she wake up will give me a call but ii waited until the afternoon! ii msg her and she called me. saying the whole thing was cancelled and she's with xiaobai. she even ask me to meet her cos she going bugis can go gai gai. when ii meet her, xiaobai and his frens. she said she was damn bored cos she dont know what to say to xiaobai's frens.lols

we took 197 to bugis and they went to si ma lu temple to pray. so ii tagged along. ii feel abit extra lorhs. what spoils my mood was they didnt plan to shop at all. so after praying and all we took bus back to je. it was like a wasted trip to and fro.

reach home cos ii already plan to have dinner out with my mom. went ii reach home she was still bathing so ii waited for her until ii dozed off.. wth iu know what? she nearly bath for 1 and a half hour!!! so it was 8pm when she came out from the bath room.

meet kor at redhill as he was there for the 7mth dinner. anyway its been a long time since ii have actually meet up with him. when ii met him he's abit tipsy already still tell me he drink ALITTLE bit only. he was with another guy. last min ask me go ps lorhs and ii was wearing long sleeve and shorts!! but ii went. its the very very first time ii wear so casual wors. but he say i'm not. watched tokyo drift and he doze off in the middle of the show some more its the exciting part and his fren and ii was exchanging gazes cos he was SNORING!!LOL! cos he was having blocked nose.

anyway it was quite fun cos his fren was very humorous..

going to restuarant mummum with qian.

but dont feel like eating wors. she say cant back out cos we've booked the table already.

HAIS~

hope the food taste nice or else i am sure going to grumble..hees

*stops here!!

SORRIE`

hmms. now in school blogging. so alone today cos qian and bell didnt come to school today.. it time for me to get used to all this or else ii will start to skip school.

been having loads of presentations for my three modules next week.

haiis..

once all this ends. my exams will starts. sobs. hate all this. maybe ii am just too lazy to do this and that but its not for me to decide.

i'm working later. dont even have the mood to go work. just want to slack at home doing nothing, sleeping, day dreaming doing bore things.


finally cleared all my bills that ii owed last time. can finally put my mind at ease. not to worry about money and things concerning money. but this also means that ii will have more money to shop! hees.

stupid julian. disturbing me!!

and here comes kris talking to me about my blog..

anyway ystd ii nearly quarrelled with qiann.

jus want to say...

I AM REAL SORRIE!

blamed it on my lousy mood and mybe its because of my menses..

quite bothered by this.

*qiann rmb to go restuarant mum mum with me okies*

-wo men de yue ding-

hmms.. this gotta be a short entry.

and my DA LAN ZHU kor. as me to give her morning call in the end on his phone to silent.lols.

oh ya, and ***** seems so bothered about the way kris tell her off during their presentation and keep saying in class when ctr lesson has yet to start

i'm just wondering when all this disbute can end..

ends here*

#moodiie min#

+`been skipping schools.+

hmms.. ii have been skipping schools for the past two days.

on tuesday ii was late for school ii reach school only at 10am cause i'm just too tired and all so meet qiann at the bus stop berfore class..cause she's always late!=Xhees. on tuesday ii only attented one lesson and the co-op duties and ii went home. thanks to the damn stomach cramp that is nearly driving me crazy.. qian went over my place with me cause she dont want to go work as iu know working is always boring. took a cab home when ii reach home my big brother is already at home. -thought of watching tokoyo drift with qian one- but my brother was doing his homework so cant even on the tv.

went to lie on my bed straight after that.. not long after that ii was in my dreamland leaving qian alone(sorrie wors) but when ii woke up she was fast asleep -.-! hees. wake her up as she need to meet her baobeii laogong at tampines-FAR right- as iu know people tends to be blind when they are in love...LOLS
so ii slack at home after she left watched glass slipper on channel U.

on wednesday my big brother dragged me out of the bed.. although how reluctant ii was. it was a no school day feeling for me. but ii just washed up and prepared for school. took the bus on dot. when ii was about to reach my school qiann msg me saying she dont feel like going school. ii was tempt by her... thought of getting MC but thinking about the waiting time makes me give up the thought.ii even convince qian that no need to get an MC -thats was very bad of me right?- lols

qian acc me home to change into my going out clothes. actually thought of going town and qian wanted to get joseph their 4mth anniversary gift but we went to kbox instead.. its was so so long ii've never go kbox already. anyway my singing just sucks. ii still prefer qian's singing =) . haas.

at night ii msg mrs ang and told her ii dont have a MC for the day and she wanted to meet my parent. that was bad! but ii insisted that my dad was not free and can only meet on sat but sat are teacher's off day. so she ask my dad to called her. ii explained to my dad that ii was not feeling well and all but ii missed out the going out part. =Xhees

[shang yi de huan yan]=X

ii was still late for school today.. sigh. when can ii stop those late comings. exams is coming and i am still not ready for it.. ii just dont want to flunk my exams. guess ii will study when ii am free..

ii wanna go home and have a nice sleep now but ii cant. thought of skipping pe but qian says go for the attendance sake..

BORED!!!

*BUSY BUSY BUSY

hmms been busy spending my free time with my sisters!!! after the breakup with him every part of my life have changed totally and i am enjoying every single part of it. ii just dont know why. but ii just like the way now.

ii know he still haven gave me up.. he have been making effort trying to bring our relationship back, but ii am afraid if ii patch back with him everything will still be the same. ii dont want hurt him again and again. ii really hope he will stop all this. dont want him to spend so much money buying things for me. its not worth it. ii dont know how should ii explain to him so that he would understand what am ii trying to say. he's a good guy, but girls like me dont worth a good guy ii guess. ii want to find someone, someone that will makes my heart beat again.but ii really appreciate all the things he have done for me.

someone has came back to my life again. thats him *leonard* i met him when ii sleptover at ann hse that night when ii celebrate her bdae. cause ann want to smoke as iu know she's the kind that cant live without smoking=X. ii called him cause we have tried all those possible people that stay near ann hse that smokes. but to no avail. he came 10mins ltr after ii called him (thats was quick) and went to buy cig. oh ya and jia wei was with us(she's a girl). the four of us sat at the staircase outside anns hse. so long never see him already the presence of him seems weird. ii was keeping quiet most of the time. dont really know what should ii say. after 20mins ltr we went back to anns hse and he went back home.

after that day, he msg me asking me whether is it possible that we can patch back saying all those stuffs. asking me to consider and all.

okies, change of topic. went to jurong point and celebrate anns bdae on sat night. suppose to get a strawberry cake for her but ii cant find any so ii bought a rasberry cake instead. do iu know where we cut the cake? it was at the third floor staircase. so funny right. only some girls like suzhen, karen, and the other girl forgot her name lers plus anns and me. we cant find kaixin as she was with navin so we got separated. so we just carry on with our plans. suzhen went off after she saw the cake and taken some pictures. so left with four of us. but we left jurong point shortly after that.

anns broke up with laihe but stead with xiaobai. its only two days after the breakup and that was fast right. ii believe he is a good guy the way he talk and his character is good. ii really hope he can treat anns well.

know jiawei when she came over to anns house in the middle of the night on sat. ii dont really liked her as she had given me a bad impression on national day as she was with wenjie they'll and a group of girls so xia lan!! fiona was with them too ii even smiled at her. anns told me that fiona change a lot. from good to bad. at least she is not smoking and all and she doesnt stick with stepf anymore. they were once good good sister but ii dont know what really happen to them.

went out with lynn ystd. (she was my primary school friend and we used to be very close that time) ii suggested to go juction 8 it was a damn bored place. thought ii can meet up with kl and reagan but all got something on. sigh. miss them so much.

reach home and acc my big brother to westmall.

nearly quarrelled with my cousin -huizi- as she was really getting on my nerves!!! really cant stand her attitude any longer. sigh. why she become like this. cause of her stubbornness she give up her future.

ii guess i've to stop here!!! late for sbm class!! =X



miin*

` been having late nights

hmms.. life is as usual.. ystd my sch was celebrating national day and i was involved in the bazaar. selling junk food.. qian and me had already spent around 50bucks buying the food and all. i make roche roses, thout people will buy but it was not what i expected. becos of the bazaar thingy i didnt have enough sleep.

everything cropped up, as we prepared the stuff at the very last minute so we didnt have this and that. we were so fcuk up. arghh.. qian was so du lan also.. say next time better dont get involved in this kinda thing. we didnt even make profit.

the fun thing was we went to the huanted hse at LT but we need to pay 2bucks for the admission fee. i thout it was very scary as the group before us went in shouting like hell. i was with zhongyi and qian (i was late and they were waiting for me sorrie didnt mean it wors) when we went in the whole place was so dark that we could not even see a thing only the light stick on the stairs to show us the steps. we dont even know where to walk so we was stuck there in the darkness complaining we dont know where to go. i even knocked on the chair all along. the scary part was when a hand grabbed qian at her leg-qian shouted and so am i- lols.

i ended up with blue black all over my leg.
it hurts!

hmms. i am going to esplanade with ann they'll today, to see the fireworks.hees. slept over at anns hse ystd. still help her to do housework in the middle of the night we swept the floor, mopped the floor and change the bed sheet. it was so tiring !!! so we went to sleep after bathing.

gonna stop here. dont know how to carry on lerrs.tata.

*better off alone . .

hmms, two days eversince the break up. he was hospitalised as he slipped and fall. his back was hurt. but was discharged ystd. last mintue have to go back to work no matter how unwilling i was. i should be resposible in my work i guess. dont wanna be a burden to my collegues. so i went to work instead, if i am not goin to go susan will have to do full shift instead and she msg me complaining... so i guess i just have to go.

when i reach there the shop was packed with loads of customer with only pinghwa and susan as rachel went for her break. went to change into my uniform shortly to help out as too much doubting customer needs help. anyway it only for 5 hr and i will be release from work. time pass quite quickly as it was sunday. slacking day. gotta go for work ltr too. my shoulder is aching due to mopping and vacumm of the floor...

he called my workplace last night.. meet him after my work... he was with guowei, sigh. he shouldnt have come since he just got discharge from the hospital. he passed me a bag of things. i didnt see what it was until i got home.

during the journey home guowei was smiling and laughing at me for no good reasons, the atmosphere was very awkward he looked so sad with tears nearly spilling out and there guowei was laughing.. wth! and i was infected by him too! but i tried not to..he offered to send me home but he gave up after i insist that he shld go home and rest well instead.

oh ya, when i got home i finally dare to look inside the bag to find out what was inside. its a baby mickey and minnie that was what i saw when i was with him previously at marina sq. guowei told me he spend 30 over dollars on the machine to get it. he also bought flowers. three red roses which meant i love iu. i admit i was touched but i know i cant. i need time to think it over. but i can say chances of us being together is low.

having monday blues todae. have to go work... dampens my mood when i think about working. sigh. have to get over and done with..

*if i another chance to choose i'll hope all these doesnt hav a start

ii guess i've hurt him again. i initate a break up, i know i cannot go on any longer with him so its better for me to speak up earlier.
went out with him ystd. i was in a bad mood due to insufficient sleep but i controlled. we didnt even know where to go. as usual we took the train first and decide ltr. i did not tell him where i went the day before i know i should but i kept quiet until he ask me what time did i sleep ystd. i told him i went out with anns in the middle of the night to meet laihe but i did not tell him the whole story until he ask.i went to ke cheng's hse after that, jus watch a movie and fall asleep till the next morning. i slept at 5.40am-the reason i didnt have enough sleep-absurb i guess.

i can see from his face that he was very very angry but he controlled. he ask me why i go even i know he dont like it i just kept quiet all along cause i dont know what to say. dont know how to speak up my mind due to lack of communication with him. but he keep asking why did i become like this not the me last time. *its was quite embarassing standing around CK tang there with him questioning me and people giving a weird stare when they passed by*

i speak up my mind when we've settled down at the table outside far east. i explained to him why am i like that. he was taken aback he just couldnt believe. for no reason i am like that. i told him what really have gone. he tried to salvage our relationship i know he couldnt bear to let go.
i am just a bad person i guess.. sigh.. all this shouldnt have started. dont wanna think too much.

we parted at jurong east. went to find huizi after that. she wanna go drink we decided to go MU but im not yet eighteen and so is she. went to rush in the end. but they left so earli didnt even enjoy den we left sigh.. forget it.

went to anns hse after that to sleep over.

now i got a message from guowei sayin he was hospitalised. gotta go. there's thing i have to settle.

#been thinking

theres lots of problems with miie recently... ii reali dunno wadd the hell has gotten into miie.. ii hurt the ones ii dunn mean to hurt...

i had separated with him for three days including todae. all this happen cos i bring this topic up. jus suddenly doubt all moi feelins. cos the feelin ish not the same as before lers. maybe we've started to quickly without getting to knoe each other more which will lead to all of these. all started on sundae. just dunno whies dunn feel like goin out suddenly but we alwaes meet on that day de... just feel kinda empty and tired, everydae seems to repeat again and again.. there's no longer anything that ii wanna look forward to anymore.

all this happen jus becos of miie i knoe he's veri puzzled whies i've become like this.. everything was alrite initially but suddenly everything seems to change over night. the one he used to knoe seems so hard to understand, so far from him jus seems like a total stranger... wadd shld ii do? i've regretted. ii shldnt hab brought the topic up. shldnt have suggest for separating. but wads done been done ii cant sae lets take it as nth had happen and pretend.. i knoe the hurt had been cause. wadd ever it ish ii deeply regretted.

i dunnos whether i shld continue this relationship.. dunno hw to face him anymore. wen ii see him ii will recall the time wen i've hurt him.. wad the hell shld i do... arghhs!!
this is moi problems i guess ii shld settle it moiself... but the wae he talks to miie nw seems so strange.. maybe we've become a stranger..

#GOTTA SETTLE THIS ASAP

ii mus also be determine not to skip anymore lessons in schh.. or else ii would be SACK.. hmms still dunn wan moii studies to come to an end. dunn wanna enther workin life wen i am so young... its like everydae repeating the same thing.. BORIN lorhhs..

wanna go bugis and shop wib qian qian!!

either this week or next week... but she sae she ish saving money wors.. anns jio miie out on fri also cannt reject cos i've promised her alreadi haiis~ jus nidd to buy some bottoms to meets moii shoppin target this month... been poor! gort no more clothes to wear go out ler wors.. everytime wear the same old thing.. siian arhhs siian... wanna go bugis try the cheese cake cos susan sae its damn damn nice... reali cannt wait for that dae to come haas..

hmms will end here for now bahhs.. update more next time!

*if lourve ish beautiful as alwaes. miin