happie 19th birthday to me!
yup no doubt its my birthday today.
i was out in the midnight clubs pub
i can say it was fun. really i dont know
more than what i expected.
i was at st james and i saw him,
maybe seeing him was one of my birthday gift from god.
he was still as bubbly and happy.
what more can ask for?
i can only look from afar..but im contented. enough
we are not meant to be not fated,
i can only get hold of that 5 mins -
colleagues got me a present! gee.
im so so surprise. they are so darn sweet.aww.loves =D
whatever it is im so elated.
i cant be too demanding. so whats next?

i wanna be in your arms
the warmth that no one can replace

loves bro.

went for singing session with darling
a little small celebration
the gift was fabulous,
though its nothing really amazing but i love it.
it been real long since our last meetups
but its wonderful to see her again.
nothing beats being with her, loves!
ahas. 5 more days heh.
its nothing big but i dont know..
im anticipating
tonight was great, really.

though its not always sunday
but i do cherish the moment we shared

after today its will officially be school holiday!
okays i know i still have loadsa task to complete.
projects, revisions, too much.
i hate politics. i dont know why it happens everywhere.
i really mean EVERYwhere
you might not know you might not see.
but its presence cant be denied
its like a silent killer, you just get shoot unknowingly.
so so deadly.
but this world is unfair;
either you sacrifice others or you yourself get it
no alternative.
i just simply dont understand why this world is unfair.
why in this practical world you have to be a bitch to get the things you want
depend on yourself, your ability.
thats the true essence above anything
save the bootlicking and be a real man..
dont fucking think that just because your status are higher you are better.
dont despise people they are human not beast.
but help each other to gain success
enough of me saying these craps-

i hate hypocrites
one day you will get the taste
of being backfire

have you ever feel like dying?
i dont know why but i feel that most people do
maybe at certain phase of their lives where bad things happened
i remembered vividly,
theres a period of time where i really thought im at the point of near death
something horrible happened to me
im feeling the things that ive never thought it could had happened on me
back then, that was the lowest peak of my life
nobody knows or heard the calling
you never know how disheartening it is to feel so alone
alone in that little corner of this world where nobody knows what you are going through
the desperation to be discovered
its really sucky
really.
you will never know how wonderful it feels to know that theres someone there,
to pull you through
it maybe be just a simple word of concern.
but it really do make wonders.
at least now,
i know ive make it through..
nothing beats the setbacks that somehow or rather that mould me into who i am today
i maybe not be perfect now or maybe in the next coming 5 or 20 yrs
but at least someone better.somehow...

a hug say it all

holidays is nearing
woohoo! but it seems kinda short
3 weeks. it will be over soon
end of the year means birthday month!
its my dad's, big bro, younger bro and mine bdae!
im gonna be real broke i guess.
i wonder whats up on my birthday.hmms
hopes* its gonna be a happy one....
theres projects and presentation going on this term and it never set us free.
from the start of the term till now and most probably during the holidays and after.
gosh, break please.
im killing hell loadsa brain cells. thanked god that im nt in this alone.
Christmas is coming i want a magical christmas!heh
the weather's been cold. its seems to be raining 24/7
people dont fall sick alrights
gotta turn in early tonight...
sing me twinkle twinkle!

i dont know what it takes
and how much it takes