happie 19th birthday to me!
yup no doubt its my birthday today.
i was out in the midnight clubs pub
i can say it was fun. really i dont know
more than what i expected.
i was at st james and i saw him,
maybe seeing him was one of my birthday gift from god.
he was still as bubbly and happy.
what more can ask for?
i can only look from afar..but im contented. enough
we are not meant to be not fated,
i can only get hold of that 5 mins -
colleagues got me a present! gee.
im so so surprise. they are so darn sweet.aww.loves =D
whatever it is im so elated.
i cant be too demanding. so whats next?

i wanna be in your arms
the warmth that no one can replace

loves bro.

went for singing session with darling
a little small celebration
the gift was fabulous,
though its nothing really amazing but i love it.
it been real long since our last meetups
but its wonderful to see her again.
nothing beats being with her, loves!
ahas. 5 more days heh.
its nothing big but i dont know..
im anticipating
tonight was great, really.

though its not always sunday
but i do cherish the moment we shared

after today its will officially be school holiday!
okays i know i still have loadsa task to complete.
projects, revisions, too much.
i hate politics. i dont know why it happens everywhere.
i really mean EVERYwhere
you might not know you might not see.
but its presence cant be denied
its like a silent killer, you just get shoot unknowingly.
so so deadly.
but this world is unfair;
either you sacrifice others or you yourself get it
no alternative.
i just simply dont understand why this world is unfair.
why in this practical world you have to be a bitch to get the things you want
depend on yourself, your ability.
thats the true essence above anything
save the bootlicking and be a real man..
dont fucking think that just because your status are higher you are better.
dont despise people they are human not beast.
but help each other to gain success
enough of me saying these craps-

i hate hypocrites
one day you will get the taste
of being backfire

have you ever feel like dying?
i dont know why but i feel that most people do
maybe at certain phase of their lives where bad things happened
i remembered vividly,
theres a period of time where i really thought im at the point of near death
something horrible happened to me
im feeling the things that ive never thought it could had happened on me
back then, that was the lowest peak of my life
nobody knows or heard the calling
you never know how disheartening it is to feel so alone
alone in that little corner of this world where nobody knows what you are going through
the desperation to be discovered
its really sucky
really.
you will never know how wonderful it feels to know that theres someone there,
to pull you through
it maybe be just a simple word of concern.
but it really do make wonders.
at least now,
i know ive make it through..
nothing beats the setbacks that somehow or rather that mould me into who i am today
i maybe not be perfect now or maybe in the next coming 5 or 20 yrs
but at least someone better.somehow...

a hug say it all

holidays is nearing
woohoo! but it seems kinda short
3 weeks. it will be over soon
end of the year means birthday month!
its my dad's, big bro, younger bro and mine bdae!
im gonna be real broke i guess.
i wonder whats up on my birthday.hmms
hopes* its gonna be a happy one....
theres projects and presentation going on this term and it never set us free.
from the start of the term till now and most probably during the holidays and after.
gosh, break please.
im killing hell loadsa brain cells. thanked god that im nt in this alone.
Christmas is coming i want a magical christmas!heh
the weather's been cold. its seems to be raining 24/7
people dont fall sick alrights
gotta turn in early tonight...
sing me twinkle twinkle!

i dont know what it takes
and how much it takes

i miss darling
i wanna see her so much.
so much so much

i failed.
woke up with a burning throat and endless coughing
the main culprit was lack of sleep
wasted revising so hard.=(((
drinking plenty of minerals really works
cant stop me from attending bbq later ^^

-working kakis is <333

i dreamt of you
if only its for real

okays i sound stupid
blogging in the wee hours with my revision undone
i got class test tmr! but im aint getting anywhere.
after one and half hours of revising.
one last part to go and i can snuggle in my bed=D
gotta wake up 630 tmr. gosh i wonder will i ever wake up afterwards.
i've been keeping up with with my attendance and if i attend sch tmr
i will hit this term target for not missing sch in a week
nothing big to call for a celebration.
nevertheless, it makes me feel delighted somehow.
damn, im so not in the mood for sleeping.
i only sense the kick in the morning, so used to sleeping late at night.
im finding it kinda hard to adapt back to the old days
where i can switch off at eleven.
i always enjoyed staying at home and engage myself in the virtual world of mine.
its always a cooling weather where i can feel the moist atmosphere breathing on me.
the feeling is awesome...
its a peaceful and quiet night now
me alone without any disturbance

miracle will only happens
if you believe in it

...........

ellos.
whats happening? whos there?...
shit shit shit, somethings wrong with me
i cant move to the beat, i cant dance like i do
gosh.why do you still appears in my mind
whats that sour-ish feeling.
i think im gonna erupt sooner or late.
my heart just go pump pump pump and stops
arghh, mixed up mind unstable heart love sick fool
i miss school. give me back my life-

even ifs...
the memories still exist

who am i

life has not been easy for me.
i gotten myself messed up, i dont know why.
maybe i just deserved all these
now, i have to clear up the mess.myself.
the one who started the fire have to be the one to cease it.
i gonna be real good and attend classes everyday
maybe skipping sch once a week?

arghh, best solution for me is to cut down on clubs
and plush is getting me kinda sick
the Dj is crazy or something.
they dont work like they are paid for-
i prefer the previous dj ^^

love life sucks.
i dont know why shld i even get into it.
when i had myself bruised for nothing
i got no answers to my questions,
no reasons to my ending.
which means im the one being so dumb stupid and silly
assuming he loves me when he just packed up and go
without any warnings or signs.
now here i am like a dummy reminiscing the times we were tgt
too short to call it love. sweetest with hidden bittergrapes

i will be happy if he get back to me, somehow?

schooling tmr! new week new fresh start
and a better person each day.

i've falls, cuts, blows and bruises not for nothing.
thats where i will stand up and learn something eventually
i never know i am a good person
i dont know how many people i've hurt without knowing
but everyone gots their own life to sort out.
for me. do whats good for myself.
i've been ranting too much for so long.
but the misses still exist.




*no matter what love ones never forsakes each other

dinner and dance

i had hell fun for my D&D
only uploaded the pics from my phone
the mc was very Very humorous i can say
but somehow after the whole thing my mood changes
drastically.. =(((((
i hate it i hate it i hate it i hate it!!!
im naive im stubborn im a bad person.
i miss your calls, msges, hugs and presence.
i know i gotta stand on my feet and move on...
i hate my imperfections

how i wish you were still here
holding me.

halloweenn

halloween party ystd!

dressing up was fun^^

messedup life

lifes been pretty messedup

i dont know why and how
maybe its just within that certain choices that i have
its halloween tonight.whos gonna dressed up?
maybe one day i'll grow sick of the life that i had and i'll just call it a break.
skipped a total of 3 days and getting 2 day late for class. gosh
someone pls just knock some sense into me. i might wake up?
proposals project is piling up, yet i'm still floating aimlessly.
i cant find the light. i need more wakeup calls..

theres gotta be more to life
then chasing down every temporary high

lifestyles

i yearn for a change
rather than disrupting
i need to cast those playfulness aside
arghhhh!

my insecurities
you never know how i feel

clumped

updates..

12.10.07 sentosa fun

bastian kena forfeit





latter at night..
presenting the bdae boy!
my sister!!tata

12.10.07

shes my besties! haas


01.10.07
celebration of lynn, melisa and lynn bf bdae!

cakes from bakerzin. thumbs up up!

make a wish

omg. arent they sweet?

THE END.

sometimes
we just dont have to take things seriously
its the fun that counts