i miss darling
i wanna see her so much.
so much so much

i failed.
woke up with a burning throat and endless coughing
the main culprit was lack of sleep
wasted revising so hard.=(((
drinking plenty of minerals really works
cant stop me from attending bbq later ^^

-working kakis is <333

i dreamt of you
if only its for real

okays i sound stupid
blogging in the wee hours with my revision undone
i got class test tmr! but im aint getting anywhere.
after one and half hours of revising.
one last part to go and i can snuggle in my bed=D
gotta wake up 630 tmr. gosh i wonder will i ever wake up afterwards.
i've been keeping up with with my attendance and if i attend sch tmr
i will hit this term target for not missing sch in a week
nothing big to call for a celebration.
nevertheless, it makes me feel delighted somehow.
damn, im so not in the mood for sleeping.
i only sense the kick in the morning, so used to sleeping late at night.
im finding it kinda hard to adapt back to the old days
where i can switch off at eleven.
i always enjoyed staying at home and engage myself in the virtual world of mine.
its always a cooling weather where i can feel the moist atmosphere breathing on me.
the feeling is awesome...
its a peaceful and quiet night now
me alone without any disturbance

miracle will only happens
if you believe in it

...........

ellos.
whats happening? whos there?...
shit shit shit, somethings wrong with me
i cant move to the beat, i cant dance like i do
gosh.why do you still appears in my mind
whats that sour-ish feeling.
i think im gonna erupt sooner or late.
my heart just go pump pump pump and stops
arghh, mixed up mind unstable heart love sick fool
i miss school. give me back my life-

even ifs...
the memories still exist

who am i

life has not been easy for me.
i gotten myself messed up, i dont know why.
maybe i just deserved all these
now, i have to clear up the mess.myself.
the one who started the fire have to be the one to cease it.
i gonna be real good and attend classes everyday
maybe skipping sch once a week?

arghh, best solution for me is to cut down on clubs
and plush is getting me kinda sick
the Dj is crazy or something.
they dont work like they are paid for-
i prefer the previous dj ^^

love life sucks.
i dont know why shld i even get into it.
when i had myself bruised for nothing
i got no answers to my questions,
no reasons to my ending.
which means im the one being so dumb stupid and silly
assuming he loves me when he just packed up and go
without any warnings or signs.
now here i am like a dummy reminiscing the times we were tgt
too short to call it love. sweetest with hidden bittergrapes

i will be happy if he get back to me, somehow?

schooling tmr! new week new fresh start
and a better person each day.

i've falls, cuts, blows and bruises not for nothing.
thats where i will stand up and learn something eventually
i never know i am a good person
i dont know how many people i've hurt without knowing
but everyone gots their own life to sort out.
for me. do whats good for myself.
i've been ranting too much for so long.
but the misses still exist.




*no matter what love ones never forsakes each other